The letters are waiting to explode
and scatter the sheet with incoherent
words bottled up for a long time
in the hope it understands and evaporates.

But, the mind for reasons beyond
the word's understanding chose
to sideline the phrases and words
popping now and then for it to be shaped
and delivered to the world as a complete self.

These words starts to understand they
were ignored but never refused to subside
with a constant influx of phrases and words
milked out from a source unknown.
The mind starts to realize the influx is there to stay
unless let free by the streamlining of the mind
and gets to a point where it can't hold anymore.

Now,
the pen was taken and the paper was drawn out
but little did the pen know that these
are words which found adobe
in the mind for it was the right
tool to give it a shape and it is the brush
used to make the strokes.

When the flow of words
came to a halt, the pen hoped
that there are many more to come
and decided to roll inside the cap by itself
when the writer forgot to close it
as she didn't want any other pen to be held than her.

Now I am entering the 4^th week of gym after coming to Germany.My initial aim was to keep me healthy and fit in the winter times and also to get some sleep which I was not getting without any physical activity.I must say after going to the gym I have started to feel good and the negative and unwanted thoughts have started to recede.The main negative thought being missing out on the activities happening in the university hostel.It got to my head and disrupted my balance.For the first time after several years I was worried about something making me realize I do have an emotional side which will affect my work.

It is said dealing with people is dealing with emotions not logic.But for the entirety of my college days I have been dealing everything logically, rationally and this was a karmic way of telling me to change my perception.Now I realize the importance of emotions.Having said that I still hate people who complain for small things.I even hate girls who complain for small things and expect the support of someone to overcome the issue.I understand they are sensitive but there must be a point where you must realize that just being sensitive does not give the right to be sad.

It is only after coming to study here I have been sad at times.The last time I was worried was in my school days which was a different story.I feel being sad and depressed attracts people and the sub conscious is happy when there are more people to care about so the mind and the heart is used to being sad.That is the main reason why I abstain myself with complaining people and surround myself with happy people.This is not to say you must not be sad.You must be for genuine reason not for some mundane ones(varies from person to person).But coming to my point sadness or happiness both are spread.So talk happiness spread it and try to embrace it is my not to me.

Ok.Having said all the major  emotional rollercoaster happened since I came to Germany and the thoughts associated with it in the last three paras I jump into my reason for writing the blog.This is a note to keep track of my gym progress.I must say I have been dedicated to the gym for the past one month and I have to give a pat for myself for it.There is still a long way to go for achieving what I wanted to achieve.

I have reduced around 1.5 kgs and I guess my muscles are feeling better and I am active and progressing. I hope to continue it.

Joining the gym was not an easy decision because I stay outside university campus.It will make it difficult to enjoy dinner with my friends.But for the greater good.I had to sacrifice the happiness of going regularly to my friends place for dinner.Having said that I have started to realize and reflect a lot about myself and still have a long way to go.

I am hoping to channel my strengths of hardwork, sincerity and dedication for gym and my studies.I  hope to achieve the goal I wanted to achieve.

Thank you for reading..!..I am not sharing it on fb still half of my goal is achieved.I do not want to attract attention and create hype.Will share this story on my blog which people seldom read.

Below is a photo of my 1st day of 4^th week in the gym(03-02-2014).

PS-Sorry if there are any error in the grammar and spellings.Wrote it straight from my heart without an review because I have my exams coming up...!
My whatsapp status related to gym:

1.Missing the leg day is like forgetting to add salt in otherwise spicy food.
2.Sincerity waking up 7 am on a sunday for leg day.
3.Dedication is doing things you don't like just because you like the outcome.
4.A satisfying workout..

As a citizen of this planet at heart and a citizen of the India officially, I wish you all a happy Independence day...!..

Thanks to the efforts started by few people in 1857 who loved and thought about freedom from authority and autocracy of British rule,East India Company .The Britishers,East India Company intelligently studied,researched the strengths and weakness of Bharth in order to do their trade successfully and possibly mend their ways to become a supreme authority in a nation with wide heritage. They adopted a well devised plan called divide and rule which is a perfect example for the quote "United we stand,divided we fall".The plan worked wonders for them and it took 257 years for the native of Hindustan to raise a movement which in turn took 100 years to fulfill the desire of freedom and democracy from a foreign rule.In this process many have fallen and the strong cultural link was broken yet we stand alone and distinct in the eye of other countries for our heritage,culture and further more unity in diversity.Yes, coming to my point of unity in diversity as a guy from south India I seldom know other languages so travelling form one state to another is itself a huge cultural shock and if a guy from other country decides to tour India he would surely have the experience of travelling 28 different countries ohh..sorry 29 it is..29 different countries because of their cultural heritage,food,language etc and yet we live together as one nation called India and enjoy the fruits of the seed planted in 1857. Respect to the fallen heroes like Bhagat Singh,Subash Chandra Bose,Chandersekar Azad who sacrificed their lives for the freedom we breath.Practically speaking their movements were sure to be a failure(not sure about Bose) yet on a broader perspective it is a huge success.They increased the thirst for freedom and inspired and continue to inspire many to fight for a good governance.Yet above all the man who inspired the world itself is Mahatma Gandhi ji who by an unique movement called Ashimsa which bought in common masses to the freedom movement accelerated the movement for freedom and is credited hugely for bringing in the much coveted democracy.Thank you all it is because of you people we have freedom.Living in India what I learnt about freedom is it can either degrade you further or you can grow exponentially to see unseen heights..It is up to to you to come to conclusions on where we stand now.

On this day I wish India to be great nation which stands as an good example for others...

Was remembered of the history lessons during school days when I wrote this write up.History is always fun to learn and teaches a lot about not committing the mistakes those people made.Ohh sorry I forgot the Persians were the first to invade India..ohh no..long story..maybe next time...btw..thanks for the Taj Mahal..

It is a gift to be a human , it is a delight to be born on earth and I feel proud to be an Indian...‪#‎JaiHind‬ ‪#‎JaiHo‬..‪#‎BharthMataKiJai‬ ‪#‎SugandaraDinaVazthukal‬..

The legendary Tamil poet,lyricist,actor Padma Shri Vaali sir(T.S.Rangarajan) passes away due to respiratory illness.

I once got an opportunity to see him at a function couple of years back.I was sitting on the first few rows and he was talking about Beatles and other bands and relating them to the greatness of MSV sir.

Then a question was asked to him that he is the person who wrote great lyrics like "Kan pona pokila Kaal pogalama" ,"Mundrinilae en moch irrukum" and he is the same person who wrote "Mukabula" ..He quickly understood where it was going and he said.."Porul(meaning) undan ezhudiya bodhu porul(money) varalvillae..Porul ilamal ezhudiyabodhu Porul vandadhu..En vetilyum adupu eriya vendama..?.(When I wrote with meaning I did not get money..But when I wrote without meaning I got money..My family needs food..right.?..)"

Also, when a person was praising him "You wrote lyrics for yesteryear heroes 90's heroes and present heroes..you are great.." for which he added "nalaya hero kum naan ezhuduvean(I will also write for the next generation too)..I remember his speech and that was an inspiring day..I was lucky to have met the legend .Great man.. and salute..___/\__

RIP sir....Though you have left this world ,you will live with us through your lyrics..!!

Influence of character on surroundings.

Well to start off there have been many stories how a person's personality affects his surroundings and has a lasting influence on others.We have experienced it ourselves.But there is one such incident from the epic Ramayana which can be analogous to the statement above.Before reading this I request the rational readers to look at the psychological implications rather than  questioning the incidents.

Well the story starts like this.We all know Lord Rama practiced monogamy when polygamy was famous and the idea of having relation with more than a women was common.Also Lord Rama's father Dasaratha followed polygamy.It is known that Lord Rama did not stray his thoughts on any other women other than Lord Sita.

We also know that Ravana had liked Sita and wished to make her his own.But he could not do it because he had a curse that if he was to touch any women he must have her consent ,else he will burn into ashes.Ravana had a power to turn himself into any form .He tried many forms to get near Lord Sita but ended up in vain.By this time you would have thought why not change into Lord Ram's appearance and approach Lord Sita.Spot on..!..The same advice was given to Ravana by his minister on seeing his unsuccessful attempts.

On hearing this Ravana said "You being a minister can think this much, I am the king ,the ruler don't you think I would have thought of the same.? I tried to take Ram's form many times but I had no interest to approach Sita because whenever I assume his form I lose interest in thinking about other women.In his form my mind does not entertain the thought of other women".

This story was read in a magazine(Infinithoughts) and this is my interpretation of the incident.Now I leave it to the wonderful thought process of yours to interpret this incident and come to conclusions which may vary from my interpretation. ..:)

Congrats Team India..!

The controversies back home seemed to have unified and gelled the team in such a way that each and every player complimented each other and have produced an emphatic success in Champions Trophy in its final edition.Team India will go down in the history as the last team to win the final edition and Dhoni as the only captain who has won T20WC,WC,Champions trophy,Test No:1 .

I have not watched a single match in the CT to comment on the tactical moves Dhoni made and his captaincy on field but what I did was follow the reports and interview he made which evidently showed that he shielded the team from any sort of external pressure.In the past he has soaked into utmost pressure on the field and more often than not delivered the result in style for he is the world's best finisher but this time around the pressure was all over the team both on the field and off the field and he has risen above all hate and lead the team to a phenomenal success.

Just before the start of the series the people(due to media) started to jump into conclusions.Right from his possibly wrong business deals to quoting him a puppet, Dhoni was attacked from all the corners and people started to lose hope.One simple thing he did was just made results do the talking and flicked the others just like a dust on the shoulder. The ease with which he does it still amazes me.His clam demeanor even in the advent of the "world falling apart" situation makes me look at him in awe.I have always said Dhoni is the best man manager on field but now I can go ahead and tell he is one of the best thing to have happened to Indian cricket and he is the best captain.  A true Champion..!

LIMBO!!

I STARE AT THE WALL WITH AN EMPTY MIND,

PLAYFULLY FEARING TO FALL FROM THE TOP,

AND AT A FLASH THE DARKNESS TAKES

ME TO MY SHAKY PAST WHICH HAS PASSED.

THOUGH I MIGHT HAVE CROSSED 

THIS ROAD MANY A TIME,

IT ALWAYS REMINDS ME OF MY CRIME.

THE FEELING OF NOSTALGIA 

IS REPLACED BY A FEELING OF HATRED AND SUCIDAL.

SO,I SEARCH FOR A CITADEL,

TO BRING BACK MY PLEASANT PAST.

THOUGH I FIGHT HARD AGAINST IT,

I ALWAYS DIG MY FALLING PIT.

AT PAST IT ALL ABOUT NAME AND FAME,

THEN I REALISED WE ARE NO BIGGER THAN OUR FRAME,

BUT NOW I REALISE ITS NOT THE SIZE,

ITS ABOUT WHERE YOU ARE FRAMED,

PROJECTS WHAT YOU WERE...

I HOPE TO GIVE THIS PIECE OF MY MIND 

TO THE PAST MIND.

BUT THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE AND NOT MUNDANE

AND I BELIEVE ITS MYSTERIOUS AND ACANE.

SO,I ATLEAST HOPE TO MAKE IT VISIBLE AND POSSIBLE,

BEFORE MY ETERNAL DREAM......